transformation ?

so, i have been thinking over the past weeks, since that 'oh so familiar word 'transformation' jumped out at me, and screamed: no !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry to say, folks. there is no such thing as transformation.

the term transformation may 

• come in handy as a marketing tool for a whole lot of 'personal growth fads'
• may sound juicy and enlightening
• also seems to involve some sort of 'squeezing through something to get somewhere' - a sort of spiritual workout - a faint reminder of when workouts | body-building and "i sweat therefore i am cultures' were popular
• it may even create an excuse to step out from where you're at, in this very moment

the truth at the end of my week-long pondering though is:

transformation's off, there's no such thing as transformation !

gee, just as you were building up to the spiritual tangent of your life, right?

what this current phase in humanity really is all about, my dear readers and non-readers, is  for the first time in billions of years is about

• returning home
• being who you are truly meant to be
• and who you always were meant to be
• standing in your light
• letting go of the old
• live from your heart
• be vulnerable and 'naked'
• live your life, and not the one that parents, society, peer groups want for you

please notice the energetic difference between 'transformation' and 'coming home', one being a process into something unknown, the other one a return to your essence, connecting you to your soul, welcoming you and hence becoming 'one' with all there is.

i don't know about you, but despite all the happenings out there, i am just having this immensely huge sense of hope and a tiny vision of world peace

love & joy and 'namaste'

the role of being 'al-one' in the game of 'being all one'

it speaks for itself that a long post that i had written just simply disappeared and i start again - obviously i am meant to formulate this quite differently? 
there is no such thing as 'all of us being connected' before we each one of us are not connected to ourselves. the journey there (and for most of us a journey indeed is involved in finding ourselves) isn't all that pleasant. introspection, and brutal honesty with self, is a key ingredient. i compare it to the traditional japanese tea ceremony in a purposefully built tea house, where you, the visitor/guest, crawl through a tiny opening into the interior of the house, leaving outside all that you thought was you, material and non material stuff. aren't we terrified of the thought to be without our job, without our house, our car, our family, our city, our country - just one 'me'. and take this even further, by observing who it is that is looking at this 'me'... 
who would you otherwise suggest that others should actually connect to/with ? who and what, if not to your essence, your soul, the undiluted truth -warts 'n all. 
have a shopping spree through this poem here below, pick out what you can for today and notice, next time when you stand in a queue somewhere how it may feel different as far as 'connectedness' is concerned, how it becomes easy and effortless to 'visualise and imagine' humanity in the near future all actually being connected... sense this energy grid, the mer.ka.ba, the divine matrix, the global coherence or simply this unconditional love, with all else left outside that little tea house, way back in the past.



 Love after Love (Derek Walcott)
The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other's welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life. 



until next time


love and light
p.s. re 'game' : life is actually meant to be fun! you thought otherwise?

the great no-thing at the beginning of any creation

stars over himalayas - anton jankovoy (thank you!)

this one has taken me a while - have been pondering on the purpose of actually writing a blog, whether a blog is a 'one way communication or not and if yes, whether it is any different to a book? 
it is quite easy to loose track of one's mission, one's passion with so much else going on, it shouldn't be; 
i would assume and i do hope that my sense of this blog being 'interactive' of it being creating openness in you to become creative is on the right track. mind you, there's no wrong or right in any of this...
which then brings me to today's topic which has played on my mind since my last post: 
the limitation of knowledge and information
now, to those of you who haven't been very interested in academic knowledge this may sound like a miracle prophecy - and by no means do i recommend to skip the schooling process - as long as you bear in mind that you must remember how to think, and not just learn what to think, ok?
the thing with knowledge is that, once it's there, it is really tough to put anything else in that place. metaphorically speaking the invention of the wheel did not happen with the concept of the wheel already in place. instead it was at the moment of 'void' , with no thing (no-thing) in place, that a 'something' could be taking place, quite simply at a quantum leap level, so to say. 

you probably have experienced this in a different context: when you were desperately trying to remember where you put your keys, or when you were 'recking' your brains to find a solution to a problem... what happened for you to get to where you wanted to get?
you let go, that's right. you allowed a 'void' to take place, handing it over to the universe, so to say. 
that would be a nice thought and is probably not totally untrue, and for the purpose of this project vision it may be advisable to create a little human exercise to facilitate this 'universal wisdom'.

imagine an elevator - traveling down from your head, your mind into your heart, taking the question you had there, in your mind, straight down with it, right into your heart. then, become really quiet, even if at first this is only half a second of 'no words time', that's great. keep wondering where the next thought might come from, while that idea, that question is right there in your heart... until your mind becomes still, long enough.... 
keep doing this, without attachment and certainly watch the 'mind chatter' coming back (that's your ego and your left brain trying to defend their job!). at some stage there will be a moment where your infinite wisdom from your right hemisphere, in connection to your heart will give you an answer.


remember, at first there is no-thing... in maori legend, there first was 'te kore', the great nothing, the great void, out of which all creation happened. 


the greatest distance for a man is not the distance from here to the sun, it is the journey from the mind to the heart.

you are a divine being, having a human experience. so get creating


aloha

going with the flow ... intuition

who knows what intuition is? 

oooooh, it's 'weird stuff' !? 

please do bear in mind that these are only my thoughts, my opinion - my mere suggestions; they are paired with my purest heartfelt intention of opening you up to your own tools, tools that you never knew you had. it will allow you to save on consulting outside 'media' for answers that are really and exclusively inside of you. 

intuition is like a muscle that you can train. working alongside - but mostly against it is our intelligent mind, our intellect, our conscious, academic mind, filled with information.  
for me, intuition can be compared to 'your soul whispering to you, from your heart, from deep inside you'... now how many times have you recently followed that kind of calling? 


as much as intuition or guidance is a natural flow of things, in this world of information - where we think we consciously know it ALL - it still has this 'new age, weird, mystic air' about it (and certainly no insurance broker or lawyer would cut you a deal on it). 
in my many many years of research, i may want to add, passionate research about what kept people safe at the last second ( i don't want to follow the typical double blind study kind of way, please do question me on here and i will point you toward the various studies, be it burning oil rigs, boats, mines or - the current topic - earth quakes) : these 'alarm bells' , this inclination, feeling, sense, hair on the neck standing up, not feeling right in my heart - sort of feeling: 
do trust it !


if it's not (yet) working for you, this is a good time to practise it. why ??? it overrides limiting beliefs that you may have picked up at a time when you were in a 'hypnogogic state' ( as in young age or 'tranced' or 'spaced out' in front of a tv, and had no way to NOT believe what was said)... i can see that his is another topic to get into - later on. 


more urgently and to the point today is: how do you practise that 'intuitive muscle' of yours? 
for those of you who work with intuition all the time, please be patient and wait for the next post. 
those who have been living in your 'intellect' and academic mind, where nothing else counts other than facts, numbers and science: right as you read this... close your eyes, just observe what your heart is doing, become aware of that area in your tummy, does it feel relaxed and 'smiling' or does it feel tense? and then in your head, if you located that spot between your eyes or even became aware of that area on top of your head, sort of what feels like a crown... that's it
as you breathe in a relaxed way and smile at those couple of areas... what 's it like? how does it feel? what are the colours you are getting from those areas? are there any messages, sounds, voices coming from there? 


there are numerous ways to practise your intution, and i will leave it at that for today. but not without a bit of homework:


with any of what has been happening ( and do - believe me please - respect, honour and compassionately share your feelings ) : for yourself, what is the first thought that you had in relation to the latest 'strong news' ?  what is the first emotion you experienced? 


stay with that - share if you can on this blog - and i will expand and talk more about this next time. 
your 'good news' for today is that you are far less stressed, disease prone, violence/addiction destined than many others... because you have just begun to become aware of 'things' 
bless you


love and light


kia kaha
 

what children want to see in the future - the first few answers

(i find i can type faster when i ommit the 'cap' button. i do apologise if this should offend language/grammar purists and i promise i 'll go back to old time style if it keeps you from embracing what i want to share and what i'd love you to take part in..., besides i just learnt today that i am a 'wayseer' www.wayseermanifesto.com and have this sense that in these times of change something much more than the 'stuff' we have in place is needed, so there: i'm a wayseer, i want to type fast and that's my way. besides, i grew up with 'mr duden' in my mother tongue, german, and despite adaptive changes over the years i think it is ... no, i wont' say that here)

i have asked a few children and think that this is possibly one way to go (to ask them directly there and then, in person... until this blog becomes a familiar platform for 'play, vision and creation' ) so here is what these beautiful creations see in their future:

-  i just want the pressure that money has on us to disappear

-  i want to 'live' outside the box with people who feel comfortable being outside the box themselves. i'm tired feeling inadequate, just because i don't fit other people's box

- time for us humans has such a special value - we need to be able to appreciate it more

- may there be music, always

and with that i will move on to the next post.

love and light

Fear - and its final days

Over the past 10 years - ever since I first read about a possible pole flip - I have looked at this idea with a sense of curiosity: 'wow, what if this really happens?' 
Not too much of an expert, but still lovingly passionate about sailing, I could see due north and magnetic north steadily distancing themselves from each other over time. 
And as seems to be the 'law of attraction' it is almost unbelievable how much information on this has been given to me over time, from both a scientific, a spiritual and 'completely wacky' stand point. 

Today we have a prediction of 'the closest full moon in 19 years', we also have a very high chance of facing another earthquake and with most of us looking at the images of devastation in Japan there is a real sense of 'uncertainty' out there. Our local shops actually had people queuing outside and all shoppers walked out with huge loads of groceries. 


So yes, what if ... what if something major happens today? 


What this is all about on here is creating a vision - interestingly enough Barbara Marx Hubbard's new movie 'Vision' has just been released. http://www.visionsthemovie.com/ I have not watched it yet, but followed closely what will be created by producing it. I did watch the previous production, 'Humanity Ascending' and these are some of the thoughts I want to share from it:


- Quantum transformations are nature's tradition
- Problems are evolutionary drivers
- Awareness of our capacity for conscious evolution is the key revelation of the 21st century


My observations of the past couple of years were that whatever an individual's personal lesson seems to be, it sort of escalates at the moment. The oscillating energy between outside circumstances and humanity's re-actions all appear emphasised, stretched at a high potency. 
Above all, I am noticing FEAR and many fear-based reactions. 


Dr Gregory Berns in his books and talks about 'Iconoclasts' gives us a precise insight into the human brain and what it does and doesn't do in a state of fear. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SIwMKFV7lFk
What stands out for me in this stunning piece of research is that fear directly co-relates with creativity! Now, this is something that has been said in different ways and different areas, and Berns' presentation seems to me the most plausible one. 


Today our key message really is to be aware of our fear - and no matter what it is that we are afraid of, address it, become aware of it, accept it, integrate it and move through it. Failing to do so we are creating an energy field that will not be strong enough to hold the shifts that are happening, simply because we will not be able to live from our heart. 
It is in our heart that we have more 'intelligence' than we were ever aware of, we also have enormous foresight, and it is from the heart that our own energy field, our aura, our matrix is formed and shaped. 
Our heart is also the place where from we all connect to one another and bring this 'we are all one' notion to reality. 


So, please do live from your heart, take your power back - it is through fear that you are being deprived of your birth rights - and for a day like today, you are depriving yourself of something as fundamental as just trust.


There will be no room for fear in a world that you - the children - nurture back in its most fundamental values: trust, love, care, joy and fun. 


Try it on, hold a vision in your mind's eye, about something you want to see in the future, then curiously observe the mind chatter that comes with it. And never ever let go of that vision of yours, for no reason what so ever 
As long as there is fear, there will be no creativity.
And to create solutions for problems that are being created at the present moment you will need to find solutions by creating them. 



Love and light and Kia Kaha

22nd February 2011 - and the 'Kali' card

Kali, goddess from the Hindu mytholody: Her erratic life represents the breakdown of ego identities in order to free souls for enlightened beginnings. Those who fear her may not comprehend the nature of her intentions or her methods of initiating change.
"The old must go, for new to come in"

  When I returned from my 6 o'clock swim and was ready to begin the second day of our training course in Kaiapoi, just as I was heading out I felt that I needed some guidance. So I opened one of the boxes of 'cards', they felt so powerful, meaningful in my hands and I lay out just one card:
Kali - for the new to come in, the old must go!
Wow, I thought and then asked:  maybe this relates to this very new concept of body - mind diagnostic that we were teaching?
When I drove to our venue I recalled myself saying that 'hindsight will let us know, why the other parts of our event (which we had named BLiSS) didn't take place, noticed how my energy shifted and asked my training partner whether I could begin the morning with a small meditation.
I am still new to presenting and training, so I observed with curiosity how the words that followed came with intent, from my heart and free from any 'personal drama': In a couple of minutes the participants and myself connected to the very centre of the earth and all there is underneath us, right up through our crown chakra to all there is above, and while so connected to mother earth and father sun and the universe and beyond noticing the learning that could be kept in the intelligent mind and also becoming aware other learning that can be felt in our hearts, and from there, from our hearts, radiating this out into the space around us, further and further, across lands, countries, continents, universes ... and returning into our 'earthly bodies' with a sense of gratitude.

A second 'wow' this morning; 'where had this information just come from? Especially since mid way the music that I had played along the meditation had stopped - still it all felt just the way it had to be.

Only a few hours later, in midst a practical demonstration we experienced the room shaking, first asked everyone to stay calm and then the voice of my training partner: 'under the tables, now!' 12: 51, a 6.3 earthquake had struck and we were to find out that it had caused unspeakable devastation in the city of Christchurch; where we were in Kaiapoi it had further toppled buildings that had been heavily damaged in the 7.4 earthquake on 4th September 2010.

Walking our talk, we made everyone jump, shake, wave their arms, chuckle - to get rid of any trauma that people may have had; the next few aftershocks took us out of the building, definitely evacuating now and we learned that the upstairs room's ceiling had collapsed in parts.

The rest of the day was spent in shock and disbelief about the incoming pictures on TV, while only a few cellphones allow us to get in touch with our nearest and dearest.

It wasn't until more than 24 hours later that I had this sudden realisation, while listening to people talk about quakes, the devastation and generally 'what was the world coming to' ?

There had been a lot of talk about 2012, movies had been made, predictions were shared, conspiracy artists had basked in a sea of grandiose ideas, within shortest of time the 'heart-opening' of some people had regressed into an 'ego' centred smallness and there I thought:

Our children, the children of this world, each and every single one of them: What really is the future vision that our children have of this world? Had we adults managed to close the chapter for them by 2012, had they bought into all this, or had they not heard of any predictions and - most importantly - were they emotionally re-active to any of this?

I am as new to this kind of writing as I am to larger presentations or trainings so - to quote a much admired trainer of mine - I am going to be allowed to get it totally wrong, the first time. Phew

In this blog I hope to create a place that completely eliminates 'fear' in this world amongst our children, and instead creates a net or field of 'trust, compassion and love'.
I believe that if all the world's children become 'one' in this, we will generate enough positive shift in our consciousness to allow the next phase in human evolution to begin - and the sun to shine.

All comments are allowed, all languages, all spellings, grammar or not grammar: this is to create for you what you want to see in your life, on your planet. Please be respectful of others, there is no right or wrong in this, all will be heard and all have a say. Let's co-create and weave this 'illusion' that we call 'life' into what it is that you actually want.

Now that my first big hurdle is overcome, actually the first real big one was to create the blog and set the intention - anyway, it feels very light and positive and I look forward to sharing my next thoughts on here and even more so, reading yours.

Love and light, Barbara